Stealthmexican
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
things that I've learned
The first thing that really struck me, and this shouldn't be surprising, is that for every person in that board meeting, there was often a completely different understanding of what went on that night. People bring their life experiences, their ethnic, racial, and socioeconomic backgrounds with them and view social interactions through those lenses. As a social scientist, I shouldn't have been surprised by this, and yet it still caught me off guard. What I interpreted as a socioeconomic/racial comment, others interpreted as a more general commentary about the role of young women and girls in our society, another interpreted it as more of a commentary about the coarsening of our public language and how we want to keep our kids away from that, and yet another interpreted things predominantly along class lines. I don't think anyone sets out to be insensitive or insulting, I think we just sometimes see things very, very differently. As I discussed with one mom recently, rather than despair over this, I guess it gets to be my job to bring these things to light. I do wish I had handled things differently, but I'm glad I said the things that I did, because they needed to be said. As the lone ethnic minority member on the board, maybe it gets to be my job to say these things.
Some Asian parents recently toured the school and noticed that there were very few Asian students at ASCA, and commented on this. Given that our school initially drew from All Saints Episcopal Church, and then via word of mouth, it is understandable that the student body would be predominantly white. This is not surprising. Although we would love to think that students don't see color, and we are color blind, this is definitely not the way the world works.
This may or may not be news to you, but when you are an ethnic or racial minority, when you enter a new situation (a new school, a new workplace, a sporting event, a conference), you often immediately scan the room looking for others like you. You then make a mental note, "oh, not too many of my people here." Then you start to think about why. In some cases, this won't bother you, but in other cases it will. When I attended the UCR MESA family engineering night at UCR with my children on Ash Wednesday, I immediately noticed that (a) the only other people with ashes on their foreheads were the other latinos at the latino engineering table and (b) in a city where over 50% of the students are of hispanic/latino descent, I absolutely did not see much representation of that community. I made a mental note to ask the organizers if they could please do more to reach out to these communities.
I'm sure that ethnic and racial minority parents make the same observations when they visit Carden. While it may not be a deciding factor, it may influence them in their decision. It may trouble them, much as it often troubles me. For as much as we'd like our school and our culture to be color blind, I'm afraid that we just aren't there yet. I'd like to make the drive to have ASCA be more inclusive not only socio-economically but also racially and ethnically a top priority. I'd like to have it go hand-in-hand with discussions about tuition, but more importantly, in discussions about our vision for the school and our long-term plans for ASCA.
Similarly, financial aid must be a top priority. If we wish to continue to have the children of teachers, clerks and working people be able to access the wonderful opportunities of ASCA, finacial aid cannot be something worked out in private, on a case-by-case basis. It has to be stated up front, right next to tuition costs. I was lamenting to an All Saints parishioner that unlike other well-established schools, we do not have a giant endowment that would allow us to offer financial aide. When we do receive large gifts, they necessarily need to go to improvements of the physical plan that are absolutely necessary when the school is growing. I wished out loud that someone would drop $100,000 on us that we could use the interest (admittedly, very little interest nowadays) to subsidize tuition for those academically deserving but financially strapped students. While I think this is unlikely, the parisioner mentioned that maybe we could get 10 donations of $10,000. Or maybe, parisioners would be willing to pitch in $25 a month or so, enough to provide partial or full scholarships for deserving students.
While I absolutely agree that tuition increases are necessary (something I noted in my original blog post), I suppose that I was just disappointed that there was not a universal concern that we were going to leave some people behind and the implications of this move. I was hoping that someone would pipe up and say, "hey! you know it feels like tuition is eventually going to reach $1000 a month. Can someone make a motion that we discuss financial aid? and while we're at it, a plan to increase racial and ethnic diversity would be great. can we discuss this at a future meeting?" Then we could all go home to our families and weekend plans. Since I didn't hear it at that meeting (though I have heard it since from a variety of parents and parishioners), I guess I'd like to make that motion. I understand that opening my big mouth probably means that I'll be in charge of it. I can accept that.
What I cannot accept is being quiet and not speaking about my concerns. Again, putting it out on a blog post was perhaps not the most diplomatic way to address things, but it certainly got people talking. It perhaps also got some things onto the discussion board that might not have been there otherwise. It got some people, including me, to do some very necessary soul-searching. I don't hate my kids' school. I'm not planning on leaving. and unless I am the subject of unmitigrated vitriol at the next board meeting, I'm not planning on leaving that either. someone needs to speak up. might as well be me.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
had to get this off of my chest
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Discipline-and punish?
So this week's warm-up question for the Civil War was as follows: You are a parent, and your child has run away from home. When they are returned do you (a) punish them to make sure they know what they did was wrong or (b) accept them back with a promise that they will never do it again. it's such a fun discussion, because everyone has an opinion and some feel very strongly about it. kids always want to know what I would do.
and....you know I'm going with (b). I refuse to be made to feel bad about it. The next day, as I was off campus going to get lunch, I overheard a radio program with some guy talking about how spanking is so bad and how it is so damaging psychologically. I started yelling at the radio. Then I called the Chef and he was also listening to the radio and yelling at it. That made me feel better!
Because this is the paradox. On most issues (economic, social, political), I am exceedingly liberal. I support the rights of my LGBT brothers and sisters to marry the person they love. I am a Christian, but it is absolutely okay to me if you are not. I have never voted Republican. I believe in social justice. I am a feminist. and at the same time, I am resolutely old-fashioned when it comes to disciplining my kids and in my own classroom. I see too many parents who are trying to be their kids' friend. I see too many that let the kids rule the roost, only to discover when their kid reaches high school and starts to get into trouble, they their kid does not respect them. Kids are smart, and will figure out instantly if a parent is being inconsistent, or if they won't follow through.
I sympathize with these parents, I really do. Fundamentally, being a good parent is REALLY HARD! There are times when I'd just like to go the easy route; to give in to their demands or to just ignore inconvenient behavior. While in the short-term this is easier, in the long-term, the consequences are more serious. Good parenting and good discipline begin when the kids are TINY. It continues up through high school and college. In many ways, I suppose, it is never ending.
I am not trying to be my child's friend. I am not trying to negotiate with them, or explain my reasoning. In my opinion, the answer "because I am the mommy and I said so," is frequently acceptable. I don't have to explain everything. I am the grown-up. I have the Daddy backing me up. When you are an adult and can pay your own bills, then you can be in charge. Until then, I am the boss. Sounds draconian, doesn't it?
It works the same way in my classroom. With 36 students in my classroom, I don't have the time or energy to debate every directive with every student. If I tell you to change seats or to stop talking while I'm talking (which I find hugely disrespectful and profoundly irritating), I'm not going to debate it with you. I am not particularly concerned with your opinion at the moment. You'll do it because I am the teacher and because I said so.
Of course, I am not perfect, and I do make mistakes. I do tell my students that if decision of mine really bothers them, then they should talk to me after class, privately, and I'll willingly listen to what they have to say. Challenging me in front of the class, however, is always unacceptable and pretty much automatically results in an immediate trip to the detention hall. I will not stand for disrespect.
When I was a kid, my mom had a paddle in the kitchen that was inscribed with the phrase "for use on little Texans," ie, me! I think my mother would probably agree that she only had to use it on me a handful of times. Most of the time, she could keep me in line with her eyes (the stare of death), or with even the threat of using that paddle. She didn't actually have to paddle me. I knew it was there, I knew she would use it if necessary, and that knowledge alone pretty much kept me in check. I didn't suffer because I was spanked or paddled. I grew up with the knowledge that I had boundaries, and those boundaries were there for a reason. I still absolutely love and respect my parents. I see how some of my students talk to their parents, and I am horrified.
I see, every day, the results of parents who don't set boundaries for their kids. By the time they reach high school, and parents belatedly realize that maybe they should've been a little tougher with the discipline, it's too late. You can't put the genie back in the bottle. I think a lot of high school teachers would agree with me. Maybe I am an ogre who is doing irreparable harm to her children and students. That's the way I feel every time someone comes on the radio talking about "time outs" and other more "modern" forms of discipline. I suppose that in this case, I am more conservative. And that feels profoundly strange!
Plus, I am also thankful that I found a wonderful man who is perhaps even more liberal than I am (is that possible?), but who is also conservative when it comes to discipline. Maybe it is because we are both children of immigrants? Whatever the case, we make a good team. My parents definitely "have my back on this." So yeah, I spank my kids. and I'm not apologizing for it.Friday, August 26, 2011
why I have 56 students in my 5th period class.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Fun Places to take the Kids Part II-CDMOD
CDMOD? What is that??
It stands for Children's Discovery Museum of the Desert, it is one hour away, and it is, outside of Legoland, perhaps our favorite place to go.
but it's an hour away! That's so far!
why, yes it is. However, I would like to point out that it's an EASY drive. Compared to going to Pasadena or Los Angeles, there is very little traffic. Driving out to the desert is relatively stress-free, unless you decide you want to go out there on a Friday afternoon, in which case I would seriously question your sanity.
Anyway, back to CDMOD. We started coming to this museum in 2007 and have been regulars ever since. The first thing you notice is the reasonable admission price; just $8 a person. We have traditionally gone the membership route, since it is only $25 per person (after three visits, it's FREE!) and that includes four guest passes, which I usually use to bring Grandma or Grandpa along for the ride. The weather in the winter is fabulous, obviously, so we try to come during Thanksgiving vacation, Christmas, and then a few times afterwards.
While this museum is smaller than Kidspace in Pasadena, is packs a lot of fun into a small footprint. For my kids, the enduring favorites are the grocery store and the pizza parlor. Even now, my big 8 year-old girl LOVES to make pizzas and my tomato STILL loves to push a shopping cart around the grocery store. They even have aprons for kids to work the cash register and pretend money at the ATM. For some reason, kids find pretend grocery stores to be incredibly fun. Even when he was barely 1 1/2 years old, my Tomato loved the grocery store and would play forever.
Upstairs there is a fabulous dress-up room that has stuff for boys and girls. I began to worry that when my big girl's foot actually began to fit the shoes in the dress up area that she would decide she was too big for it, but no! She still loves to wear the hats and jewelry and glittery dresses, while my Tomato becomes a construction worker or fireman. They are definitely into their gender roles, what can I say??
There is a great toddler area adjacent to the grocery store and pizza area, for parents who want to keep an eye on both kids. The main floor has a vet's office (always a big hit), an art area, an area where you can paint a VW bug (kids LOVE this, go figure), some more advanced construction stuff for older kids, plus a plethora of hands-on play manipulatives. There is not too much outside yet, but they are in the middle of construction as I write this and so hopefully this part will improve. For now, outside is a good place to eat snacks or lunch under the covered awnings, or just to run and shake off some energy before getting back in the car to go home.
and if you don't feel like packing a picnic lunch, there is an In-n-Out burger right by the freeway on-ramp!!
Really, I can't say enough good things about CDMOD. It's one of our favorite places, and we go a lot. If it was closer, we'd go more often.....
Fun Places to Take Kids Part I-Kidspace
We'd go to Kidspace more often, but it is a solid hour's drive from Riverside. Having said that, it is definitely a worthwhile excursion.
Having a 5 year old and an 8 year old is sometimes difficult, in that the older one can actually read and understand the exhibit information, whereas the little one mostly wants to climb and manipulate things. What I like about Kidspace is that there is plenty to please both kids, often in the exact same exhibit. Kidspace has multiple climbing towers, which if you read the descriptions, actually have some science and knowledge behind them. While my big girl reads (and climbs) the Tomato is busy climbing up and down and wearing off some of his energy. The inside space has exhibits on insects, a functioning beehive, stuff on the environment and a really cool room with minerals and other tactile objects to manipulate. However, the outside part is great too, with a construction zone, more climbing objects, gardens, a tricycle track, environmental exhibits and plenty of water play. We may have spent as much or even more time outside than inside.
If you have a toddler, there is a section of the museum just for little ones. The first time we went to this museum, my Tomato was still 2 or 3, so I dropped him off with Grandpa in this section and we didn't see them at all until lunch! I'm not sure exactly what play options are in there, but apparently it was lots of fun. The Tomato rejoined us when we went to the outside exhibits, mostly because there were lots of opportunities to climb and run amuck, two of his passions in life.
The museum has absolutely FABULOUS eating options with healthy snacks, but it is also located in the park adjacent to the Rose Bowl, so there are many places inside and out to eat a picnic lunch under mature, beautiful trees. Another advantage to its location in a park is that before you hit the car for the big drive back home, you can always have the kids hit the nearby playground for a last ditch attempt to wear off some of that energy.
Perhaps the only thing I don't like about Kidspace is that it is NOT cheap. At $10 a person (kids AND adults), it can turn into an expensive outing, once you add in the price of gas and food. Combined with the drive from Riverside, it definitely turns into an excursion. These are the reasons we don't go more often, but when we do go, we thoroughly enjoy it.